Jesus Christ was/is either the Lord, a lunatic, or a liar.
Have you ever heard this before? The Professor in The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe says something similar about Lucy after she returns from Narnia, although he doesn’t compare her to the divine. I’ve recently been reminded of this phrase and at this point in my life these words have a fresh meaning.
Even after the wedding celebration I’m finding myself busy from fending off pesky little worry-bugs that tempt me. Each day something new comes up. Worry here, worry there. And every day I’m asked the same question. Who do I believe God is?
Aaron and I are grateful for this season but find that the next couple months have us puzzled. Our plans are somewhat ambiguous. Generally we know I’ll be in school and working part-time, but as for him – there are many major questions left to be answered. This is incredibly frustrating, especially when trying to budget or make solid plans. “Where are you and what are you up to?” I wonder (all the time). In the midst of rejection and frustration I remember this time last year we had less stability and even less information and we turned out just fine. His promise to be faithful is true every time, so I know God is not a liar.
“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23
This season has also given me plenty of opportunities to feel crazy. For a while it seemed our calendar would never look empty again. I was cranky and spread way too thin between creating, paying bills, working, forgiving, eating regularly, etc. I thought that just because all these (good) things had ended up on my plate, I needed to gobble them up. I worried my efforts would not be enough as I was not seeing the results I needed. My to-do lists grew longer and longer and my energy waned. Does God think I can manage all this? Who does He think I am? Is He crazy?!
Well, is He? No, He is good. We are usually the nutty ones who think God’s strength is only for the “big stuff” in life. God’s wisdom is applicable in all moments of our lives. He cares for our credit scores, our recipes, the yucky chores, everything!
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:8-10
If He’s not a liar or a lunatic, ultimately He is Lord. I rest in this. My mind is often tempted to be frightened with what my eye tells me. Take the Partnership Program for instance. My eye tells me I need more sponsors to qualify for the program and ultimately for the full-tuition scholarship. With a deadline closing in I have every earthly right to be concerned. However, my mind rests in the peace of Christ. In 22 years of life He has personally demonstrated to me that He embodies both truth and goodness – why should I fret?
Aaron and I are enjoying the summer while it lasts and taking in every moment as we know it. We’ve found that life, even with it’s challenges and unknowns, is much more enjoyable resting in the Lord’s strength and love.